One day at a time...in reverse

I can't believe how long its been since I have written anything on this blog. Just for myself. I get the thing now about one day at a time. It goes both ways I now see. When I first got into AA I didn't think I could live without drinking. And I always had great sweeping plans for my life. If I couldn't accomplish anything major then I thought I was a failure and wouldnt even try or during the course of it--like my 27 years as a tv news reporter--I was always anxious thinking I should be doing more. And of drinking....well....so I am learning that yes, not only can I live without wine but am way happier without it. And I have not had a drink in 3 years 6 months and 17 days! One day at a time. So by just concentrating on the one day at a time I didnt drink today I have this amazing amount of time and feel great about it. And I am continually struck by the natural way it has happened. Same thing with problems. I can get overwhelmed trying to solve my whole life problem right now! But if I just figure out what I can do about it today then I can relax and let it unfold. Like my tax problem. I owe the IRS an unimaginable sum of money. And I used to go insane thinking about it lying in bed at night trying to figure out what I could sell, my diamond earrings? My Rolex? No they bring in nothing for studs at the jewelry shop or the watch. I would be out a watch and nowhere near paying off my $55,000 debt in back taxes left to me by my former husband after the divorce. So OK I have a payment plan. I pay the IRS $500 a month. Nothing else I can do about it. I have a lien on me personally because I own no property any longer and I write these checks which often times mean I can't afford manicures or even doctors appointments but right now I am healthy and can do my own nails. And then one month at a time I am paying off this unsightly debt. I looked with great amazement at my bill this month and I now owe the IRS $32,000.00 It is going away slowly but it is going down. And I don't stress about it most of the time. So now the other lesson I am learning. Same principal. Only backwards. One day at a time I can lose things. Like my physical therapy that I did after knee surgery. When I was doing only twice a week for six weeks my knee was much stronger. Now if has heeled and I have stopped doing my excersices. I keep telling myself I will start them next week. But I am losing ground the longer I go when if I just do them twice a week forever my knees will stick by me as I age and I can walk. And that brings us to writing. I was blogging every day. At least once and I was feeling great about it. Watching my blog posts grow. And then I stopped. And I said just today I dont have time to write. But that one day turned in to 11 days!!! So I am back. One day at a time I will grow and unfold and find time to at least post some bit of writing.