one day at a time....

I can hear my late father telling me to take it easy ....one day at a time. I hated that. What did it mean? I wanted everything right now. And I have pretty much lived my life trying to do everything at once. In my tv news career I could not ever be satisfied with where I was. I was always sending out resumes because I wanted to be in a bigger and better market. NOW. My stomach turns thinking about it. And I could not be happy. I needed more. If only I would say. Or when I am in NY I will be happy. I finally got to NY and I was a little happy after a while but then I wanted a bigger position. Not sure what this has to do with one day at a time but I guess what I am constantly amazed about is how by just stringing one day at a time together I have three and a half years of sobriety. I am a sober woman and I did it one day at a time. Or I should say I do it one day at a time. It does add up. The way I lived drinking needing everything immediately I could never get any feeling of a solid life because I was so intent on solving my entire life problem whatever it was right then and there. If I was fighting with my second ex-husband I would demand to know if the marriage was over. It seemed to me I just had to get it over and to know the answer. NOW. I always wanted everything neat and clean and sealed up. And that's when it came to me. The only time everything will ever be neat and clean and all sealed up is when I am lying in a coffin and my life is done. So until then I better enjoy each moment and live in the moment one day at a time. I also need to add here that taking on way too much was always my m.o. I try to do everything...and in the same vein as one day at a time is one thing at a time. I heard at a meeting early on this tip from an old timer: He said moving houses used to seem unmanageable. There was just so much to do. So what he learned to do was to break it down. Like one day at a time he took one drawer at a time. So he would pack up one drawer of a dresser. That was his goal. And that seemed do able. not so overwhelming. Then when he was finished with that one drawer going on to the next drawer and before he knew it his house was packed. I need to think about that with everything I do. Baby steps. And just as long as I don't drink one day at a time and try to stay in the moment and do the next right thing when I do make a move I am doing well.